i am such a bad player

yesterday's carnival was alright.
somehow, i felt i didn t play as how i wanted to play it.
for the first match against YJC alumni, i really felt we can do much better than them.i think like pris said it , we need a failure to slap us across the face and we will then only wake up and score the goals that were needed previously against the match we lost against them.

i realised also before i played in any or EVERY floorball match, i get so kanchiong and forget all i really needed and wanted to do in a floorball match! like omg, i woudln t pass the ball flat on the ground as supposed to or looked up before i passed the ball.

i think i have a selfish brain. i think that everybody in my team can get my ball or can run as fast as they can to the spot where i am passing the ball. i honestly felt disappointed in myself yesterday. i think haha was quite pissed at me too D: oh well, whatever it is, i am going to improve myself from the next training onwards.
i don t care!

i am going to run up to every ball that is meant for me instead of just standing there waiting for it to come to me. i am gonna have to learn my whole repositioning again and be rough on the court ever so to intimidate my players. most importantly, my freakin stamina. i will to run as if my ass is on fire.

tomorrow i am playing against my own secondary school
i don t want to be playing like how i played yesterday.

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hello tempura deborah,
your already on the way to the airport while i am typing this. anyway have fun in phuket! like you said, get the sand! hahaha, we want to see what is the difference between the beaches we are going to. take care of yourself!

my mom is scared my father might have a heart attack when he see me in a bikini.
i told her that i felt the same way too
and if my father might have a heart attack, what about my grandfather?